My College Years Have you ever considered the changes that are taking place and will take place in your life as a college student? Has it ever occurred to you that your professors and other school personnel have certain goals for your growth and maturity during your college years? Has it ever dawned on you that certain developmental changes will occur in your life as you move from adolescence to young adulthood? As I turned to be a college student, I considered these questions a lot. I wanted my college life to be different from others. I tried to make every decision by myself, which means, I made my life rich and colorful, and full of uncertainties. Truthfully, I had a tough time in college. There were many things disappointed me. During that time, I was helpless and depressed, as the world was painted with only one color----grey. Once, I was in a competition for class monitor. I felt like a lion that has great confidence. I never thought about the result because I knew it must be me. But, the real result was out of my expectation. I lost to another girl who I never treated as a competitor. Later when I went back home, I left myself in my room and fell into a deep thought. Why I lost it? I began to ask myself. Why I lost to the girl who may not better than me? Those questions kept showing. I couldn’t figure out. Suddenly, a sentence slipped to my mind. When you are going through a crisis, it often helps to talk to someone. So I began to send messages to my friend, asked her advice. She told me that the shyness may be the reason. The people who did not know me may confuse my shyness with unconcern. They may think that I am not easygoing and hard to be work with. It dawned on me that she was absolutely right this time. Although I lost the competition and I couldn’t forgot that terrible feelings, I learned from it. I know how to prevent it. In addition, there is also happy time during my college life. At the beginning of my first year in college, I joined school’s volleyball team. At first, the reason I joined the team was just to build my body. But a couple weeks later, I changed my mind. The volleyball team was impressed me deeply by its strong active mood. Everyone there had the same passion for volleyball and the same strong mind to win the champion. We were not only teammates but also families. Although we hadn’t a gym in our college and we had to training during the burning summer and the freezing winter, we had never complained even a word. We trained harder and harder. Our arms were full of petechiae, our legs could not raise, but we still kept big smiles on our faces. Because we knew that we could improve ourselves after that hard training. I loved and still loving our volleyball team. In there, I realized that I could get happiness not only from a person but also from a team. I realized that if I pay more, the team would be better. Everyone’s effort could make the whole team stronger and stronger. Recently, we won the champions of league match of volleyball. Our feelings were hard to describe. In a word, passions and efforts make success. The past two college years, I was through an identity crisis and was endeavoring to found out who I am and what my strengths and weaknesses are. It was hard to get clear of it, but after these two years, I know myself more and more. Because of the opportunities I had while attending college, I, like many other students, experienced a new understanding of the world and of myself. College is designed to be a time of personal growth and expansion. At times it can be threatening. For certain, it is an experience that contributes to my growth and maturity. I think I was grown and I am still growing in my understanding of myself, others, and the world in which I live.