请帮我翻译一下,拜托了~~~

我因不知如今的我想要悔改已经是不可能的事了，特别害怕回想起过去。对于过去，总有着太多美好的回忆。然而现实通常很是残酷，就让我们彼此将过去的感情深深埋藏于心底吧
Since I don't know that it has been impossible for me to repent now, I am so afraid to recall the past.There are too many happy recollections of the past. However,the reality is usually very cruel.Let's just bury the past sentiment deeply in the bottom of our hearts.

I have now I can not be further reformed to know, and very probably过去remembered.过去忆so many great follow-up.现実But it is always very cruel.间to both my达过去treasured and give his feelings

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