请英语高手帮我翻译一下这段话，不要翻译器的，谢谢

It is totally different between the your behavious in Italy and China,I have no way to understand your life.I miss you very much though I am afraid to see you,I even try to make excuses for myself to aviod you ,because i am really afraid that when we meet,the only thing you care about me is whether i am fatter or thinner instead of how fine my nealy life.That will make me more upset.I am waiting for you to grow up,waiting for the right time when you have learned how to treat others by heart to tell you that how important you mean to me.

纯手工，希望可以帮到你、
还有。。有点感人啊，这是你写给朋友的么

过去在计划体制下，人的这种权力被剥夺了，人的选择能力丧失了。我想辉煌不但是这种统一授课，统一教材，统一评定enthusiasm and creativity, and also ver

your performance in Italy is so different from china,you never let me know how's your live,though I still miss you very much but I am so scard to see you,I even found excuses to escape from you as I afriad that when we meet up you will only concern about how's my apperance but not how's my daliy life.That will only makes me even more upset.I am waiting for you to grow up,waiting for the time when you learnt how to treat others with ture heart and tell me how important I am to you.
？我一边翻译一边觉得对不起我妈啊，这话就好像是我妈跟我说的一样啊，然后你也看到了我翻译出来的成果其实并不好啊，真对不起她啊，学英文也没学好还冷落她////

You in Italy and in China's performance completely different, you never let me know about your life. Although I miss you but I'm afraid to see you, even in find excuses for yourself from you, because I am afraid that you see I will only care about my fat or thin, rather than ask me how life recently. That will only let me more sad. I'm waiting for you to grow up, you become sincere will tell you after what you mean to me.

Your behavior in Italy is totally different from in China. You've never given me chance to let me know you. Even though I miss you so much, I still fear to see you so that find excuses to evade you. The reason is that you just care baout whether I become overweight or thinner not how everything with me is going when you see me. It makes me sadder. I am waiting for your growth, waiting for you ...

The problem that you are in italy different from in China completely, you never let me touch your life, I am afraid to see you although I miss you very much. even I have made excuse to escape from you. Because I worry you only take care about my body fat or slim not about ask for how is my life presently. in that case will only let me more sad. I am waiting for you grow up enough. I will tell you how much you mean to me until you would have learned to sincere.

尽管知道有满意答案，我还是愿意把自己的译文传上。我是按外国人的语言思维方式来翻的。我翻译从来不用翻译器。